Sentenced (XXI-XXVII)

Six little children and a timid wife

were the source of fourteen adoring eyes.

What they didn’t know was how I despise

myself unable to give a good life.

How could they have known my personal strife?

I didn’t want them to know, those sweet eyes.

I would raise them to a home in the skies

and they won’t even remember the knife.

 

But the eyes never stopped gazing at mine,

no longer a gaze of adoration

but with a look that scorns my selfish crime.

Lord, please save me from my mind’s mutation

and close their eyes which exist beyond time!

Or, forever, just close mine – please close mine!

 

Astronomical Love

he fell in love like the moon
tentatively following,
keeping distance,
always protecting
her from the barrage of asteroids
she would never see.

her orbit was his and
she guided his path as long as they lived.
his iridescent gaze was hers.
he would guide her nights
and help find the lost parts of her
in darkness.

who would have thought that
astronomical love wouldn’t last forever?
no one knows how it happened;
some say she froze over,
others say he stopped protecting her
and she was hurt.

they’re still friends.
she’s on the self destructive path and he
can only watch on.
he still protects her,
but he could never get close and
protect her from herself.